The sun is shining, even though it is still cold outside. I have 2 of the little boys up and fed, but Paul and Hans have been sick and are still sleeping.
There are messes to clean and I should get busy on the daily grind, but I just want to sit and maybe sleep a bit more.
Some days there are times when you sit back and think about your life…what it is, and what it should be. I sometimes feel like life is going by much too fast and what do I have to show for it?
I had to remind myself that I do have 4 beautiful boys to show for my work this past 9 years and we have a nice warm place to live.
It is like I want to do something great and important.
What is great and important though?
I realized that the reason I want to do something that is more noticable, is because mothering does not look so great all the time.
Especially when there is throw-up involved, runny noses, spilled milk, dirty laundry and sticky tables. But, really later on in life, who is going to remember that long the way you dressed on April 21, 1998?
Who is going to remember the way the house looked Sept 4th, 2003? I know I do not remember!! But I remember the people I was with, I remember the things I did with my children and they will remember! They will remember not exactly the day or the deed perfectly, but that you took the time to play with them. The reason they will remember is because slowly these things will impact their lives to form them into the person they will be.
If you are constantly harried, yelling and fuming about the mess the house is in or how why are they arguing again?, then this is their memories.
I do not want my children's memories to be mostly this.
Yes, there is a time for discipline, but sometimes I notice that I want things to be neat, tidy, orderly and quiet!! Sometimes I have to just let them be boys and be noisy and laugh until they cannot stand up.
What kind of memories are you making today with your children?