I do it all the time! I tend to look at the things I am doing and be totally happy and fine with it and then boom…someone makes a comment, gives you a look, or just is living their life and not even paying attention to you, but you are paying attention to them and there you have it, you must be doing something wrong because it is not turning out like them or other people do not like the choices you make.
<p> There is that verse in the bible about how comparing yourselves among yourselves and yourselves by yourselves is not wise and there is true wisdom in that. <p> I really wish I was perfect! I really do! I wish I could be like my sisters and play piano, but I am not gifted in that area at all. I wish my house was spotless and there was no unexpected messes, I wish I never got frustrated with teaching children the same lesson over and over and again, but sad to say, I mess up.
It is easy to look at other people’s lives from the outside and think how their life is perfect, but probably really if you told them that, most people would laugh. The opposite is true as well, assuming everyone must have a miserable life as well.
<p> Pretty much, to sum it up, life is what you are going to make of it. If you choose to be thankful, grateful, accepting yourself as human and go to God with your short comings, you are going to end up much happier than if you beat yourself up all the time comparing yourself to the neighbors, other people in the church or even having to live up to other people’s opinions of you.
<p> Anyhow, still I find I do not fit in well anywhere. I am different than almost everyone I know. I am different from so and so because I homeschool, another person because of the way I dress, still another because of being a christian and so on and so forth and all over there are people trying to change you and make you a different person so you "fit in" their niche! So, my decision remains the same! I am who I am, and while I do not have a problem with improving myself, I want to love others for who they are, not how they dress, look, school, or any such thing and I don’t want to make them just like me. We are pretty unique just the way we are and unless it is a sin that I need to change, I would like to stay just the same!<p>